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Cinderblock Garden

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Busy, busy, busy . . . that’s what my life can seem like. I like to use the word “FULL,” but y’know, tomayto-tomahto. As I’ve been in conversations recently, I find myself eternally grateful (like those little aliens from Toy Story) for my community of friends near and far. They keep me sane, they keep me laughing, and most of all they keep my life full. Because of them, I find even greater purpose in what I do in life. One of my sweet friends recently asked me, “When do you ever take time off for yourself?” My reply was, “Every chance I can.” 

I realized at that point that it was possible that people considered my work week schedule to be overwhelmingly burdensome, but it’s not. Thinking through that actually helped me to realize how much better I’ve gotten at guarding my life schedule through the years. It can seem a preposterous endeavor to think that my phone would be open to our ministry families and our teens 24/7, but I consider them part of the family (of sorts) and I enjoy being able to use my time to listen to, pray for, and encourage my family. Plus, I’m really bad at reaching out to others, so when I hear from folks it reminds me not to get stuck in my solo bubble. Although it may seem ridiculous now, I’m actually hoping that when I have kids of my own, those opportunities will be equally granted to me and I’ll be able to call on others for a good shoulder to cry on/listening ear/prayer partners.

I will admit that I work a lot, but I never feel that it is burdensome. If anything, my work world only get tough when I don’t offer myself enough grace to rise beyond my failures in each job. For instance, when I make an error in uploading our quarterly journal to our website at The ‘Ol 9 to 5 or when a kids/youth event didn’t go as I planned. I have high hopes that God will continue to work through these situations with me as I continue to grow in Him and in the faith-filled community I am part of. It’s actually quite reassuring to see how much I’ve been able to create good work/non-work divides in my life through the years. I used to be a TERRIBLE workaholic, and now I’m only a mid-level one. 😉

I realize that in the place I’m at in life, my days off look differently than others but I still find time to feed my body, soul, and mind in the mix—you know, like any other normal grown adult. 😉 Though some of my days off might include a ministry event, I lucked out with the opportunity to be a part of kids and youth ministry. That means that my events include lots of laughs, fun, and adventure. I feel that if I were a mom with my own kids, I’d be doing similar things on the weekends—I love the idea of having weekly adventures! Also included in my time off is other adulty stuff: trips to get fro-yo, household chores, Netflix binges, family phone calls, working out at the gym, watching copious amounts of YouTube videos, fun research projects, weekly errands, and lots of coffee shop exploration!

Still, there are times that I find my mind focusing on “work” projects during non-work time. Often I find myself watching a TV episode on my laptop and all of a sudden something in the show triggers an idea that I want to incorporate into one or both of my jobs and then my mind just fixates on it, drawing all my attention away from the show and onto the project. I’d be more than open for any ideas on getting better at managing that! In the meantime, I’m taking each battle as it comes.

I really do enjoy being in this season of life where I’m able to have a lot of flexibility in my weekly schedule while still learning boundaries in it. I realize that there will come a time (hopefully soon) where either a guy or a child will come into the picture and in a sense, I’ll be living for two. My life, schedule and focus will change in a lot of interesting ways when that time comes, but right now I am treasuring the life I’m leading here and now.

I enjoy days like today where I sleep in until 10am, watch 3 episodes of Parenthood while eating breakfast & cleaning my room, just before I head out the door to Target, the mall, and late lunch. I enjoy sitting here at Bauhaus coffee shop planning for my upcoming trip to Atlanta and watching people jog and walk around the lake across the street as I enjoy my strong coffee and rice krispy treat while listening to the Bonnie & Clyde soundtrack. I’ll enjoy prepping my meals for the week when I get home later and watching a few more episodes of Parenthood before I call it a night, ready for what awaits tomorrow. But most of all, I’ve enjoyed taking this time to reflect on where I’ve grown in life and the joy I’ve had in writing my thoughts out here for you to read. Thanks for sharing life with me!

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